Mar 13, 2002

Ok, so I didn't win it. I am a smart girl but was taken advantage of. I'm in the processing of MAKING HELL for Diamond Holidays. Just remember folks, nothing is free in this world.

I'm still going to the Bahamas, but in July on a REAL cruise. So much travelling this year! In a week and a half Laura and I are going to Puerto Rico to visit our wonderful friend Olvia :) I think it's going to be so much fun! I just hope it isn't too hot....

Cristina is here now. I picked her up from O'Hare last Friday. Jess and Laura came along. We went out to eat downtown at Ed Debevics. Love that restaurant! I was upset on Sat and Sun though because Cristina spent the entire weekend with Heath, but I have to keep reminding myself she's not here to visit me this time, she's here to get married. I'll have to see it as more like another roommate than anything. She and Heath might buy my 98 Saturn, which is good. I offered it to a dear friend of mine a while ago as a special gift, but he didn't want it, so.....maybe this was meant to be. Heath had to give his car to his mother anyway so they don't have a car. Right now they are kind of "renting" it for 3 months but hopefully they will buy it.

What else? Not much. We put a loft above my bed so now we have 3 people in our small room, it's kind of funny, actually, but at least this way the futon in the living room can stay as a couch (Cristina goes to sleep early) and we can do whatever we need to do out there.

I'm still not a very happy person, but I'm surviving. I know no one who reads this knows what I'm referring to, but that's ok, these blogs are more for my own eyes anyway. My journal, so to say. When I look back on it 20 years from now (which reminds me I have to somehow download this stuff) I'll know what I'm referring to. I'm a strong, independent woman. I'm doing what needs to be done. I'm doing my best at being a good person and showing love towards others. I have become bitter and cynical over the years, I realize that, but I am trying with all my might not to let that overcome the loving, friendly person that is inside. The one who loves without fear, the one who truly cares about people and the world we live in, the one who knows all the pain and heartache I have suffered in my life is worth it, because it is making me a better person, one who can help others with their trials. THIS is what I have to remember.

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