Isn't it funny how things can turn around suddenly, and life seems to do a 180? I have been miserable for so long, and I knew what I had to do even though I wasn't ready to do it. And the Lord answers prayers, of that I am certain. He has answered so many in the last few weeks that I'd feel so ungrateful if I didn't recognize the fact. But somehow, suddenly, I have made several new friends, one who I am certain now will be a lifetime, or eternal friend. I am so grateful that the Lord hasn't forgotten me while I've wasted away much time worrying about things I cannot change. I've had to learn to put it in His hands and go on with my life in a way that would be pleasing unto Him and definitely to myself. I've always been striving to be a better person - I have always thought this was one goal every person should have in life. Make yourself better. Educate yourself. Reach out to others. Love a little (or a lot). Hurt a little (or a lot). Do new things. The happiness that I have been taught my whole life was indeed right in front of me! The gospel! We now have a singles ward (for those non-LDS, that means a "mass" set up specifically for single adults between the ages of 18 and 30). My attendance to my meetings before this ward formed wasn't so great, now I'm excited to be there. They gave me a very important leadership role and suddenly a big responsibility has fallen into my lap - and it's exactly what I needed! I needed so desperately to be needed, and here I am. It is exhilirating, to tell you the truth. To once again open up to others, and to serve others and not be so selfish and concerned about myself. It has brought great joy and love to my life!
Well, I could ramble on!!! But I won't. I'm just very happy right now, and so grateful to my Father in Heaven for the wonderful blessings he continues to shower upon me, as undeserving as I can be sometimes.