Dec 15, 2003

I have found him! We've found each other! I am so happy and so utterly grateful to my Father in Heaven for guiding us to each other. I'm so grateful for the experiences I've had in life that have led me to recognize Jeremy when I love him and to appreciate everything about him. I especially appreciate his humility and his weaknesses...I'm grateful to know everything about him..and to know he's me. I'm grateful I'm able to love him with all my heart, mind, and soul....yet not put him on a pedestal and expect perfection. But oh, how perfect he is for me! We compliment each other in so many ways. We have the same outlook and ideals and beliefs. We know exactly how we want to raise our children. We have spoken extensively about financial dreams, education, the gospel, our past and our hopes for the future, our fears and our foibles, our ideas about child rearing, marriage....and so much else. We still have a lot to learn about each other but Heavenly Father decided that it was time that we met...and prayed...and realized that we were meant to be together.

I love him so much. Words cannot adequately express my gratitude and my humility to have him in my feel his love and to love him in return. He is so patient and willing to wait forever and a day for me. He knows my heart has been broken and yet he is determined to literally heal my heart. He expresses his gratitude and his love for me in such a way that the Spirit testifies so strongly to me that he is indeed a choice Son of God. His past has not left him desolate and bitter; rather he rejoices in his trials and in the things he has learned. He has overcome so much. This remarkable man joined the church just 3 years ago..two weeks into boot camp (he's a US Marine who just returned from Iraq...he's my 'cute' marine ;) He humbled himself before the Lord and joined the very church he so disliked before..because he recognized truth in its gospel and correct principles. He loves the Lord and wants to serve Him, even if it means putting aside marriage. He loves me and wants to serve me. He wants to bless me with children.

I never knew a man such as he existed. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would be able to get over the previous love of my life...and find someone who I have, in fact...loved my whole life. I just put a different face on that man until I finally found him. I never knew someone could love me so much and with so much fire and spirit. He completes me. His quirky sense of humor and his romantic ways of expressing his feelings are so endearing. His drive to succeed and provide for his future family....his intelligence and wit...his confidence and charm...and his voice (I really really love to hear his voice - especially when he's singing "Happy Birthday" ;) absolutely blow my mind! How could I have possibly guessed that Heavenly Father allowed me to suffer so much pain and heartache over the past several years only to find someone who surpassed all my expectations? Sometimes I feel so unworthy of him and his love, but I know that we are meant to be together. He has reminded me that I am desirable, that I am beautiful, that I am a special daughter of who God loves very much...he loves me so much, with all of his soul..and I never thought I'd ever find that. And most importantly, his love to follow the Lord is the greatest blessing I can imagine. He fasted for two days to receive the answer that we were to be married. He is so honest and so forthright...and I love the way he flirts and makes me feel like I am truly a woman. He is such a beautiful man, inside and out, and I am just flabbergasted that the Lord has been so mindful of me. All I can say is wow. Jeremiah _____, you are my life and my love. You will be my husband and I your wife. And I love you...and I am announcing this to the entire world. I will wait for you, if you are called on a mission. I will do everything the Lord requires of me to be worthy of you. I will support you and cherish you. You are truly my everything.