Jan 6, 2004

Jeremiah _____ (the love of my life) and I.

Jeremy, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

What a fantastic week. On the 31st I was at Dane County Regional Airport, waiting for Jeremy. When he walked through the gate, I recognized him right away. He kissed me before anything else, and then we walked down to the baggage claim.

It was truly like magic. Ok that sounds really corny and ridiculous, but it was! I mean, I hadn't met the guy until the 31st and yet I felt like I had known him forever. There he was...my future husband, the man I had fallen in love with without ever having met...it was better than kismet. We spent our 'first' date at a wedding, and I think we were oggling each other more than the bride and groom were, LOL. I loved spending time with him and getting to know his presence. We had already gotten to know each other quite extensively over the phone and on the internet, but having his physical presence there was exciting, tantalizing, and real.

Having spent so much time...literally hours and hours (we're talking probably 48 hours or more just talking to each other) I knew that meeting him in person would only enhance the relationship we had already developed. And so it was. I just am so grateful to our Heavenly Father for helping us to meet online the way we did. I'm so glad Jeremy decided to chat with me and tell me cheezy jokes that first day. It's been such a miracle the way it has all happened, yet so wonderful and so real.

My family adores him. I took him home on New Year's Day where he met almost everyone. My family is very particular about the men I date (because I have been hurt so much in the past) and although I knew they would love him (he has the same corny sense of humor the rest of us do ;) I did worry a little. They were afraid I was rushing things. I don't blame them; I would worry if they hadn't worried about me. But all their fears were put to rest when they met him and saw us together. My mother even called me up a few days later and told me that the whole family (even my sister!) gave him a 5 star rating (out of 5 stars, of course). He fit in so wonderfully, and even my mother told him he could call her Mama G, like the rest of us do:) He loved my family, didn't think they were the least bit abnormal (lol) and had fun getting to know them. He was at ease with their questions and their teasing. He even went with my mother to the casino on an errand to find a friend of hers.

And he loves Cory, our puppy. He loves my cats and cuddles with them. Corey gave a big goodbye hug to his "Uncle Jeremy". He bought my family Christmas presents. He was at ease...he was himself...and even made sure I spent time socializing with my own family (although all I wanted to do was cuddle with him ;). He saw me at a bad moment when I got angry, and he dealt with it with ease. He patiently dealt with some of my road rage, yet encouraged me to calm down. He just loves me so much, and accepts me for who I am, and while he wants me to continue to want to become a better person, at the same time he says he loves me the way I am, even physically he says he doesn't want me to change. I think he's nuts...I should lose some weight (which I have been trying to do since March!!) but he loves the way I look. He is a crazy nut...but hey, I guess love will do that to you:) He is always so humble and doesn't think he's a ladies man at all, but I see the way women look at him...LOL he's just too humble, I guess. Personally, I think he is a beautiful man...and he's all mine!

Anyway, I just can't believe how lucky and blessed I am. We have so much in common. We have told each other every embarassing and shameful thing we have done in our lives. We have told each other all the great joys we have had in our lives. We truly do have an open and honest relationship. We recognize the little things we do that are annoying to the other. But as Jeremy always says, they are just "crumbs in the butter". Heck, we even bought each other the same Christmas present...acting upon an inside joke:) It was quite humorous. We even both bought each other gifts that were engraved from "Things Remembered"! Coincidence? I think not!

Oh, I love him so much! When I heard him bear his testimony on Sunday at church...that was the clincher. This man loves the Lord so much, recognizes his nothingness before Him...and wants to serve Him in any way possible. I only hope to be so devoted someday. I love the Lord with all my heart, but I can still be selfish sometimes and controlling, and thinking that I know better than the Lord does concerning the things in my life. But we both want to do the Lord's will, and prepare ourselves to accept it, and I am grateful that I found a man who is my equal on this spiritual plane. Actually, I think he far surpasses me, even though he joined our church only 3 years ago...but he is so devoted and so spiritually gifted that I can't help but fall in love with him even more. This is exactly what I had been waiting for. I need a man who loves the Lord - there is no other way someone other than that could be the father of my children. Yet he enjoys life and loves it and recognizes that there is a time and place for everything (Ecclesiastes 3). He is the kind of person I want to become. He makes me want to be better. He completes me. He has healed my heart and shown me a love I didn't know even existed...and I thought I knew the capacity of love! I am so grateful and so blessed. I am so glad we are both realistic as well, and recognize the trials and difficulties that do lay before us, yet we are willing to work together to overcome them.

Jeremy, I love you. I know I complain, I murmur, and I feel sorry for myself way too often. I know I get crazy sometimes and giggle uncontrollably...I know I am weak....I know I don't drive as well as I should...and I know I can be almost unbearably selfish at times. Yet you still love me! All I can say is wow. Even my bishop and his wife and so taken with Jeremy. My bishop told me that we looked awesome together, and thanked me for sharing him with the ward. I had to chuckle....but it put a smile on my face. Just as my heart filled with love and joy and a lump formed in my throat when the security officer at the airport, before scanning his luggage, shook Jeremy's hand and humbly thanked him for his service to our country, and said "God bless you!".

Thank you, Heavenly Father, for everything in my life, and everything I have experienced! Thank you!!